When Will I Be Okay?

Laying in my bed, trying to fall asleep. I have work really early tomorrow and all I can do is cry. I dont want to cry. I don't want to be that damaged girl. But what can I do when the only person who can stop my tears is the cause of my pain? Why did I let myself ever fall in love. I feel like I'll never be the same. Someone please tell me, when will I be okay?

Heartbreaks and Headaches

Being home has been a constant reminder of why I left. I feel like I am being attacked from all sides. I feel weak and trapped. I have no other hope than to look forward to the fall. I feel as if my summer ended before it began. Hopefully I will be proven wrong.

Insight

Looking back,

I realize life.

I comprehend the truth,

I acknowledge the lies.

I see the promises,

Some kept,

Others unfulfilled and broken.

I notice the doors,

Old opportunities closed,

New ones opened.

Yet most importantly I feel the change,

I understand the growth.

I realize life.

Weird

It's hard for me sometimes when I get stuck in uncomfortable situations. I often let them roll over and let go of any feelings I have towards them. Yet, today I can't seem to do that. Although I am not really secret about my sexuality, many people assume what they want to. I understand that everyone is entitled to their own opinion but I still feel offended when people bash my sexuality right in front of me. Then I feel disappointed in myself for not speaking up. I guess part of it is my fault for lack of courage. Yet, it is hard to fight a battle with another when I still struggle with the same battle within myself. I don't know what to do. There is really no one for me to talk about this. I want to express myself openly but I always feel limited. I think all sexualities are beautiful. I never discriminate.

Song Mood: All The Things She Said - t.A.T.u