September Goals

• Work for OMGee as Advertising Intern
  
• Work on POP!!! (♥)
  
• Get a Good Camera
  
• Learn New Songs on My Guitar
• Move into Pace Dorm
  
• Maintain Healthy Hair
• At Least One More Summer Concert!
  
• Fashion's Night Out Sept 10th
• Change Work Hours
• Save Money!!

August was a hectic month a lot of ups and downs, well mostly downs. September, I've been waiting all summer for this month and now it's here. All I constantly did in August was running errands, working, or setting things up for the fall. I applied to a couple of internships for the fallwinter. I got two interviews hoping for two internships to chose from lol. However, now I'm an official advertising intern for OMGee magazine. I am excited for this coming month and the rest of this semester. I went dorm shopping yesterday at walmart. I got dishes, pots and pans, a towel set, and a lot more cooking stuff. I still have some think to get on my check list in the next 3 days. I know I have a hell of alot work set out for me but I also know I can accomplish it. I made it a priority to surround myself with positive, influential, and resourceful people. The POP TV eboard is already amazingly dedicated and ready to take on anything and anyone. I am way too excited, you probably couldn't tell I am really heartbroken. I'm taking my focus off of love and relationships and focusing on success and friendships.

August Goals

• Finish Portfolio
  
• Work on more for POP!!! (i'm addicted!)
  
• Get a Camera
  
• Learn New Songs on My Guitar
  
• Pack for School (YAY!)
• Get Grandma B-Day Gift
• Healthy Hair
• At Least One More Summer Concert
  
• Apply for More Fall 2009 Internships

Last month was extremely productive and fun(thanks to Kaitlynn, Lisa and Jeanette). POP now has an active blog (http://poptv36.wordpress.com) and it's first commercial (from Do Something.Org). Right now I am designing my digital portfolio and working on some new pieces I just finished a vector drawing of myself and I am now working on one of Chelsea.

Mid-Year Assessment

Looking back on my post "Everyone Makes Pointless New Years Resolutions, Time For A Change", I see the change I promised myself coming to light. I have stayed focused on maximizing my monthly achievements and became more self-conscious of my time. I have also become more resourceful. All of this gives me hope for the rest of the year. I am looking forward to new and bigger achievements. I plan to develop more.

July Goals

• Increase Blog Content Quality(I feel like I slacked lately)
  
• Work on more for POP!!! (T-shirts, Website & More)
  
• Concert Fun! (The Cab &Warped Tour)
  
• Network for POP
• Organize Design Portfolio(Halfway Done!)
  
• Get Better Camera & Start Photography Portfolio
• Set Date for Pool Party
• Learn New Songs on My Guitar
  
• Apply for Fall 2009 Internships

So this whole month has been POP-mania! From organizing things for September to recruiting at orientation. It wasn't the greatest month but POP has made it better. We have all new accomplishments this month: a completed and signed proposal, ready to print business cards, new email (poptv@pace.edu thanks Jeff!), over 100 fans on our facebook page, ready to be edited footage from Andre, a list of eager new freshmen, deals ready to made with other school's organization, and a growing contact list. I feel so excited and proud. I am very glad that we(Kaitlynn, Ivonna and I) took a chance on this idea that was generated by my simple interest during my first semester of freshman year. Well enough about POP I need to relax sometimes I'm a little too excited lol.

So another random thing that occurred this month was getting to finally see my favorite band Chester French perform(and for free too!) at the south street seaport. It was awesome and funny because during sound check a member of the crowd got upset about the lyrics of the song and argued with the stage manager, i couldn't stop laughing. I also got a free issue of PAPER Magazine ♥ (haven't read a lot of magazines lately because I've been broke but PAPER is one of my favorites!). It was a great day! Also in this past month I got go with my friends to MTV's new show, It's On With Alexa Chung! We served as audience members the day my favorite Demi Lovato(I know it sounds like everyone is my favorite but I really love Demi Lovato) visited the show. She was amazingly beautiful and I felt that although her interview seemed shy away from parts of her life, she was still genuine. I hope to see her in concert again one day and hopefully meet her and talk to her about her influence on me. All Demi Lovato lovers be sure to watch Princess Protection Program and get her new sure-to-be-awesome album!

Other things I am looking forward to is my favorite aunt and cousin from Canada are coming to spend the whole month at my house!!!! They always make my summer better and sometimes my aunt seems to be the only one to understand me. She does everything in her power to keep me happy and level-headed. Last summer she let Lisa and I stay with her despite barely being able to accommodate us, however she still did it because she knew I needed to get away from home. I appreciate all her efforts in my life and I am glad to have such a great aunt.

For some strange unexplainable reason I feel the need to discuss my recently added on my iTunes. This one is pretty long, about 30 songs! I downloaded the Nylon 2009 Summer Playlist. It was free and got me listening to new songs I would have probably never downloaded. I am really becoming a fan of the Tiny Masters of Today and La Roux. Also on my recently added list is Demi Lovato's new single "Here we Go Again" and Kid Cudi's "I Poke Her Face" (on repeat lol). Right now I'm in the process of downloading more playlists from Urban Outfitters' website. Free Music is fun!

June Goals!!!

• Increase Blog Content Quality
• Work on Video Samples & Website for POP!!!!
• Edit Summer Concert List
  
• Network for POP
• Attend at Least One June Orientation to Recruit for POP
• Organize Design Portfolio
• Get New Camera
  
• Start Photography Portfolio
• More Show Ideas for POP (including cartoon idea)

So May was a bittersweet month, mostly bitter. I lost or damaged a lot of my life. My car is damaged and so is my heart. I lost almost $1,000(long story). I lost the love of my life, forever. I learned things I never wanted to know about him. Now I could never see him the same way. Sometimes I wish I could forget all the pain and be with him again. But our relationship lost trust and without that we could not function. I can't lie, I miss him a lot. I hope sometime soon I can be alright. For now I'm just shifting my focus and ignoring my pain.

May Goals

• Increase Blog Content Quality
• Work on Video Samples for POP!
• Transfer Job to SI Location
• Organize Summer Concert List
  
• Get Gym Membership
  

So last month I accomplished a lot. Not only did I successful turn 19, I also reached many goals. I caught up with all my classes, presented the business plan for POP TV to both OHRL and the Dean of Students, kept a good balance between work, school and social, achieve the position as photo editor for The Pace Press next year, and went to both Bamboozle and Martha Stewart to celebrate my birthday.

a love downstream

Consumed by desires for you
I overlook your every flaw
Until it is possible to question their existence

My emotions slowly become attached
To your interactions with me

Constant dreams of you plague my night
And you be come the daily feature of my thoughts

I recycle excuses
For our lack of connection
And hope that the feelings secretly flow both ways

Every morning becomes the potential day
That infatuation become love.

I wrote this poem in class for a writing exercise. We had to write in the style of Walt Whitman's "Song of Myself"

April's Goals

• Blog way more!!!
• Work on POP!
• Organize activity for DOSOMETHING.ORG with RHA
• Photoshoot with Lisa and Darren
• Handle camera situation with circuit city

I finally got a job. YAY ME! I also am finally writing an article for the paper. School seems to be going fine except the whole waking up early thing. I still have to figure out my whole dormitory set up for next year by next week. And i have some really cute clothes for my phootoshoot with Darren.

Today they were filming gossip girl by my school. I saw Blake Lively but not Chuck Ed Westwick, sad face. Also, TOPSHOP was having an opening party but we couldn't get in. No surprise. Tomorrow after class I am off to search for the top shop van for freebies and Ed Westwick for a photograph.

Fafi = Love

When I first discovered Fafi's art I became infatuated with the sexual yet cute cartoons. I made several attempt to even meet the artist, herself (failed). Now looking back at photos of her amazing artwork I still find myself in awe. I cannot wait to the day I meet her. I want to ask her to draw a Fafinette cartoon image of me so I can turn it into a tattoo. I will not let anyone other than Fafi design it. I can wait for that day.

Late on the March Goals

• Blog at least once a week including pictures or video
• Obtain a steady job( interview this Thursday )
• Write at least one poem (i completely forgot to do one:[ again! lol )
• Do well on midterms and papers
• Read more
• Do more personal art projects

I finally got Adobe CS4!! Thanks Kenny, Josh, & Frank. Since then I've been using my free time to create line art. This month is crazy busy and kind of crept up on me. I'm still dealing and managing and progressing. More to come.

Pancakes and Jonas

It's been an interesting month so far. A lot has been achieved. Most importantly I finished my RA selection "competition" lol. Although very stressful it was a great learn experience. I saw the Jonas Brothers. :D It was a great day. The show aired on MTV February 23rd. My video was include in the intro for the show, exciting. lol. Today was free pancake day, I day I greatly look forward to. At the RHA meeting today I had a really tasty pancake but my trip to a IHOP is brooklyn was an epic fail. I am currently working a huge media project, with great help from Ivonna and Kaitlynn, that I hope will cause a good change for Pace. WISH ME LUCK

Insight

Looking back,

I realize life.

I comprehend the truth,

I acknowledge the lies.

I see the promises,

Some kept,

Others unfulfilled and broken.

I notice the doors,

Old opportunities closed,

New ones opened.

Yet most importantly I feel the change,

I understand the growth.

I realize life.

February's List & Other Updates

The LIST

• Blog at least once a week including pictures or video
• Obtain a steady job( still trying:[ )
• Start getting body healthy(way more! like exercise and diet)
  
• Write at least one poem (i completely forgot to do one:[ )
  
• Do at least one article for school paper or CCL

January wasn't a big success. Relationship is still hot and cold. I don't know what to do with myself. My new classes are okay, but early. Being here is still happier than I could ever be at home. I never as to leave. Too bad I have to. Stupid father called today, her forget whether I was born in May or February again for the 13th year in a row. Not to mention he promised to call me back about 4 months ago. February has been real busy so far. Lots of meetings and clubs and organizations. However it's not overwhelming, yet.

Everyone Makes Pointless New Years Resolutions, Time For A Change

Instead of making empty promises about what I want to do this year, every month I am going to set about 3-5 goals and aim to fulfill most of them before the month is over. The goals range from simple to difficult, but they will all lead towards a better year and life for myself.

January's List

• Blog at least once a week including pictures or video
• Obtain a steady job
• Start getting body healthy
• Write at least one poem
• Finish RA application