I Love You, David

So basically the first month of school has been really hectic for me. I've been trying to make the most of my opportunities despite all the problems I continuously face. And I no longer have a dollar to my name. I am barely living check by check. I am still waiting on financial aid to get my signature paper for the 3rd time so that my tuition can get paid. I also have been trying to hide the fact that since David went to Nigeria, I feel different about my family situation. I felt that David kept my family together and now it is falling apart more than ever. Right now, I am currently fasting in order to bring myself spiritually closer to God. I feel I need a lot of direction, answers, and support. I really miss you David!

Street Lights & Moments

Yesterday was David's birthday. I LOVE him to death so I threw him a birthday party at chuck e. cheese. He don't really got other toddler friends cause he only talk to grownups so it was only a few of us. It was still fun. They revamped chuck e. cheese it was bigger and had better games. I get jackpot every time we played. On the way back BOOM! Some stupid driver tried to make a quick turn at the expense of the safety of me and all my passengers. We crashed and my day was ruined. My car is now damaged and I am car-less to Lord know when. All of this was cause over the 30 seconds he could have waited before he turned. I can't wiat ot read the report he gave to the police. The fact that my air bags didn't deploy and I had the right-a-way proves that i was driving the speed limit and that I was RIGHT!!!! I wish this never happened. After that I went to the hospital to check out my headache that occurs when I hit head during the crash. Despite the fact the ambulance took two hours to get me, that was not the worst part of the night. I waited in the hospital waiting room for 4.5 hours before I was seen by a doctor. I had to get a CAT scan and wait another 2 hours for the results. I got home at 5:30 am with the a prescription for my mucsles because my body went into shock. I went to get my precription filled today and the pharmacy was closed when I came back to pick it up. Now I'm sitting in bed in pain, without a car, work tomorrow, and lots heartache. I need to get away from this destructive island. I miss my dorm so bad.

Vampires = Sex and other problems

I have a slight obsession of vampire related stories, movies and television shows since I can remember. I often recall times in my childhood when I wished to be one really bad. I cannot remember what triggered my affection for them but it hasn't left me since. And with all of this, I have still managed not to read or watch twilight. I think it might put me over the edge, lol. I know this is a random post but it was what was on my mind right now.

In other news, as far as my goals go for the year. I am blogging more often. I am trying my hardest to obtain a job. I am also eating healthy and less often than before. The poem is still unstarted but not forgotten. And my RA application is great progress. I started the form, revised my resume, and got to letters of recommendation(one more needed).

This "vacation" was a miserable waste of free time. I babysat my very active but adorable david everyday from 8am till 8pm bearly any breaks. I know I enjoyed getting to see him since I rearly get the chance, however, I disliked the fact that my parent abandon me and left me responsible for almost everything. This was the difinitely the coldest winter ever. Christmas was also a waste. I tried to be in the spirit of giving instead of reciving but all got was complaint and only on thank you. I spent all my hard earned no sleep having final stressing money. But I learned my lesson I think. I grew up with this family yet somehow I always manage to be the only one burned by them. I should have learned my lesson before now.

However, I'm leaving this miresable island on friday. YAY! Saturday will be full of jobhunting and schedule planning. I'm spending the weekened with my awesome new friend Kaitlynn. We are going to work on our RA application and try and find other things to do around the city.

I have so many plans for this new year, I'm not going to let anything try and stop my progress. I'm still on a positive note and I'm trying to stay here.

Song Mood: Decode - Paramore (vampires=sex)